In a relationship I believe it is imperative to be able to meet halfway, especially during times of disagreement. To have an argument or disagreement then be able to talk about it, effectively communicate with each other, apologize and then move on. If you cannot do that then I simply don’t have the emotions to deal with the shit.
I have been in past romantic relationships where the communication has been completely off. I would go for days angry, weeks of being sad, and feeling lonely all together. I’ve spent too much time in the past in relationships that go nowhere. I feel that I am better able to identify problem signs now. And now again, still not even 6 months into my new romantic relationship I am faced with the sign. I have admitted my wrong doings, apologized, and was willing to let everything go even though she wouldn’t admit her wrongs and apologize back to me. Because come on, let’s face it, relationships are a two way street and there are usually two people at fault during a disagreement/argument/fight, whatever you want to call it.
The main issue is communication. There is a lack of communication. I believe when there is a lack of communication there is also a lack of respect and trust. How can a romantic relationship survive without those things? It just cannot. We are not on the same page as I thought we were and it is really quite amazing how little it took for me to realize that. My feelings are really crushed. I don’t say the words “I love you” loosely. I feel like I’ve been sideswiped. And I cannot cry, at least not yet, because I’m afraid that if I cry I won’t be able to stop for a long time.
I am a believer that relationship conflicts are healthy and normal, HOWEVER they should not go unresolved for an extended period of time. When relationships cannot mend it causes heartbreak, uncertainty, sadness, and loneliness. I just moved here from another state, about 300 miles away give or take, and I simply do not have the energy. This is suppose to be a very happy transitional period for me. I began a new job, new living situation, new friends, new experiences, and everything has been extremely enjoyable.
I think that my Queen and I are finished.