Sometimes I feel like Queen and I are 100% on the same page, and other times I have no clue what she’s thinking or feeling. I am naturally the type of person to over think any situation, but I am trying to change my ways. I am trying to be more mindful of a situation before sounding the insecurity alarm.
Queen and I both agree that it seems like we get along better when we are together. When we aren’t together Queen and I are prone to a lot of miscommunication and useless arguments. It’s like we go from being goofy and loving to not knowing each other at all. It is very frustrating.
Lately (meaning this week), I have made it my goal to be more mindful when potential arguments arise with Queen. I’ve noticed that things that set Queen off, like me changing plans last minute, she tends to have double standards toward. Last week Queen got upset with me because I told her I didn’t feel comfortable coming over while her roommate was there, and now today Queen tells me she wants one night less with me during my days off from work. I just have to let it go because if I don’t I will over think it, and then it may cause an argument.
By the way, things are still really weird with the Queen’s roommate. I slept over the over night and Queen told me to leave the next morning as if I wasn’t ever there. I was literally sneaking out of her apartment. Yea, I don’t like that. Her roommate is totally running the show there, but I can’t say shit.
Anyway, I can only hope Queen and I can work through this. She is the most amazing thing in my life right now, and I am still processing how I got to be so lucky in love with her. I am leaving work tonight to hang with lesbian couple friends that I hope to be someday.
*CHEERS TO THE WEEKEND!*